April 25

Sunflower, originally uploaded by Ramona.Forcella.

In the office and just pondering about today. This has always been a significant day for me for so many reasons. It's a day I celebrate a great friendship with my bestfriend. Too bad that BFF is away and we can't hang out together. But near or far, we are always close at heart and as we always say, we are still under the same skies, we look at the same sun, moon, and stars.

Some years ago, this date is also significant, as I remember crying my heart out to God. I was at one of my lowest points and I realize that there are times, even friends cannot comfort me. I found my peace simply by opening my heart to Him in prayer. He got me through that and I can't believe it's been eight years already. Healing very well, stronger and a better person now.

So what's with the sunflowers? It has always been a symbol of hope and happiness for me. Remember that it follows the sun? So it focuses on the light instead of the shadows. I'd like to be as cheery as the sunflower, no matter what the circumstances maybe. Rain or shine, the sun is always up there. We just have to keep the faith that it will always shine after the rain.

The sunflower also gives me many reasons to smile about. Someday, I'll tell the sunflower story.  For now, I'll just keep it to myself.

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Wishing For a Late Night Walk

Las Arenas Rosadas, originally uploaded by Ramona.Forcella.

I've been wanting to make myself write something. And yet I couldn't do that lately. I am just simply not in the mood to write. But now I am actually writing and updating this blog! However, I don't like the reason why I am finally writing down this particular post.

I wish to go out for a walk just to let steam pass. But it's quite late already and I really have no where to go. I thought of visiting my little corner here and just vent out a bit. I walked out of a group discussion. I was upset. And knowing myself, I need to deal with the first blast of emotions first before I start to open my mouth. Writing seems a good way to sort out thoughts and emotions, so here goes.

Was I angry? No, I don't think so. It takes a lot to really get me angry. I am just simply upset. I know that they did not mean it. I was just hurt that some of my friends forgot something that I specifically said and not too long ago.

I have been known to be a good secret keeper. I suppose I expect that from my friends as well. But circumstances and in all this hustle and bustle, they just simply forgot and blurted out what I have been protecting for quite sometime now.

I suppose it's not a big deal that while I wanted to write anonymously, some people eventually found out something in some twists of events. My identity is not really the big issue with me. But it should have occurred to my friends that I may have some perfectly good reason to hide under a pseudonym. I even had to change the URL of this blog. You know what changing the URL could mean to search engines and all of that.

Anyway, what has been said cannot be undone. And the only thing left for me is to get over with this and move on...and that is what I intend to do...but I probably need some time.

For now, I think it's time to hit the sack. Feel sleepy already. I'll have that walk some other time.

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